wed oct 13th

went on bump n grind with laurie and her friend nadia today. KILLER! It was good though, aside from being too hot and sunny out. We went up the hardest way- which has a short but nearly vertical assent. We didn't make it to the top, but turned to go down the back way. Nadia was overheating, and we were tired too. I am sore, but not as bad as I thought I would be. I am excited to try it again!

Haven't been eating as well this week- only one salad for dinner, other nights- fish tacos (good but I had white wine), pizza - spencer was sick, and more white wine, and chinese food with sarita and spencer's family monday night. I have to say visiting friends/family= lots of eating out, most of it not healthy. During the day, though, I've been doing pretty good. fruit smoothies from starbucks- I know it's a lot of sugar, but it's fruit and I have been exercising- eggs and toast, cheese or apples and pb for snacks, water. I probably should be eating giant salads for lunch. That will be my goal next week: 3 salads.

Today I will mow the lawn at my parents and also hopefully go workout for 45 in the workout room. - OH! Sunday night, spencer and I did go 40  minutes on the treadmill. Monday I didn't exercise, nor Tuesday, nor thursday. nor nor nor. sigh.

swimming lessons

tonight spencer and i went to the pool, because last week he said (as we're on the treadmill), 'i should swim more.'

so we went. and MAN is swimming tough! I mean, I thought I was getting back in shape, but I was gasping for breath at every turn! Poor spencer could barely see without his contacts, and I think because of that, he strained his neck trying to keep his head up and squint. We both stumbled out after only about thirty minutes and 8 laps of different types.

I doubt I will be getting spencer back in the pool anytime soon, but I like it. I still fit in my water polo suit from jr year of high school! That is nice, but I want to actually look good in it, too. I would love to get to the point where I can swim for an hour consistently and not be dying. It's so easy on your joints and is a great heart workout.

Then we came home and made fish tacos, which spencer declared were "an 8." Woohoo! That made up for the hatred of the water. I think he wanted to like it, but it was just overwhelmingly hard. It's something I take for granted, having been such a swimmer my whole life- just for fun, but still. I would spend all day and however late I could stay up in the pool. One good thing about living in a desert.

Funny that it is mid-October. Oh well. C'est la vie.

monday oct 4th

Last night after writing my goals, spencer and I went to the workout room. We did 30 minutes on the treadmill, me walking at an incline, mostly about 3.5 mph and around 5 incline. Then I did 2 planks for 30 seconds and stretched.

We had a chicken southwest salad for dinner after that and I resisted the urge to eat junk (ok i had one mini snickers) and had a bowl of rice crispies instead.

Today I didn't do much, other than cleaned the bathrooms. But I did one set through this chair strength training workout from self.com: http://www.self.com/fitness/workouts/2009/10/workplace-workout-slideshow?mbid=enws_mow0930#slide=6

it's good. think i will work it into my normal routine.

Go Red for Women

I just signed up for a 12 week program to be healthier through the american heart association. It has goals each week and rewards. Here is the link for my goals: http://www.goredforwomen.org/BetterU/MyJournal.aspx?Week=53277

My goal this week is to add one heart healthy thing to each meal. My reward is 2 glasses of wine.

This last week, I think I worked out about 3 times. I had wine a few times too, but I am doing pretty good at not eating junk. I had carrot cake for Nani's birthday on Friday, and then a hamburger and chips and a tiny piece of cake for isabella's birthday. Birthdays are killer. Today I had two doughnut holes.

My exercise goal this week is to do strength training/pilates twice. I need to start doing more to tone muscle.

Ok, here goes.

The end of week 12 will be CHRISTMAS day! wow- I didn't even know that. That is so cool!

wed sept 22nd

spencer and I went on the treadmills again- not very creative, but at least we're getting better at consistency. half an hour- and we figured out that the best time to go is 6:45-7:15, cash cab and the intro monologue of The Daily Show. 

I am doing pretty good at my sugar/alcohol ban, too. Popcorn once a week, on whatever weekend night we watch a movie. In the last week, I think I've had 2 glasses of wine, small ones, and a couple pumps of pumpkin spice in my americanos at work. Also finished the bag of skittles we had- which was less than a normal sized bag. Now that temptation is gone- I am so bad about skittles. We also had pumpkin pie and one small scoop of homemade mint chocolate chip ice cream in anza- the pie was made from pumpkins they grew- can't say no to that! But I didn't finish the whole thing. I think overall I am feeling better, and hopefully can stay on track this week and next. 

thursday sept 16th

today my mom and I went on a walk for about an hour around the cove. It was hot out, and I think I got a bit burned. It's the middle of september and still hitting 100, this is where my patience is most tried, the ever-lingering summer. Sigh.

I am a bit sore from my arm workout yesterday, but not too bad. I think we walked about 1.5 miles today.

Tomorrow, I think I will take the day off, and then try to talk spencer into going on a walk in anza- maybe tomorrow at sunset. It's not the beach at malibu, but we love anza. our own personal retreat.

wednesday sept 15th

today i went on the treadmill for about 20 minutes, running and walking at intervals while watching tyler florence make pulled pork sandwiches, peach cobbler and coleslaw. yum! then I did some arm weight stuff- bench press with 10lbs each (2x 12 reps), tricep behind the head thingies with one 10lb weight (2x 12 reps), lifts out to side with 5lbs each (2x 12 reps) and my version of a rowing exercise, bent slightly while standing and pulling 5lb weights from straight out in front to elbows bent, arms tucked at sides (2x 12 reps). Maybe I should learn the real names of things, just for my own time-saving sake.

sunday sept 12th

(writing on tuesday the 14th)

I did the pilates download from exercisetv.tv. It was good and on monday I was sore. Good ab workout, but it was my shoulders and upper arms that were sore.

Goal for the week: work out 5 times- including sunday. sunday, tuesday (strength and cardio), wednesday cardio, thursday (S&C), saturday- go on walk in anza.

also, day 1 of my giving up sugar and alcohol, and cutting back on caffeine. the caffeine will be later, but for now, I am cutting out alcohol and sugar for several reasons: to get in shape, to have more energy, to know that I can live without them, and to prepare for maybe trying to get pregnant in the near future. This is also why I am working out more- to get where I want to be physically before I get pregnant, so I am healthier, more active, and hopefully don't gain too much weight.

friday september 3rd

Spencer and I walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes after putting a meatloaf in the oven and prepping the mashed potatoes. I am a bit sore today from it, which is sad because it was hardly a workout. I realized at my doctor's appt this week that I really don't exercise. At all. And that I should be doing something active almost every day. It's a miracle I am not more out of shape. I think it is a good thing in a way to have my goal for physical activity to be physical activity, and not 'get in shape' 'lose my love handles' 'drop 5 pounds.'

Today spencer and I are going to clean out the garage, and hopefully tomorrow evening play basketball with the ball I bought him for his birthday 4 and 1/2 months ago. What can I say? The summer here is soul deadening. It makes one listless and irritable at best, but now it is nearing the end. We should be under 100 at the end of this week! Would be amazing if it lasted.

wow, tara, wow.

it's been one week..... jk. It's been like over a month since I put anything on here! Which is really sad considering that's not too far from the truth about how often I've worked out. I think it's been about once a week for the last month.

Yesterday, Spencer and I went to the gym and walked/ran on the treadmills for about half an hour. It was good, and in my defense, I have had some serious back pain from work. Just went to the chiropractor on Thursday, and am feeling better. Our goal this week is to work out twice. And sunday is our VACATION to leo carrillo, so we will be doing lots of walking on the beach and hiking for those three days. I already feel like three days will not be enough. I also did some tricep dip things and dumbbell presses, so now my shoulders are sore, but it's good.

We have been eating lots of salads lately, and cutting back on snacking at night. Also, I have been getting more sleep since my hours at work are more sane, so I can see that I am losing some weight, though I really want to be getting out and walking or doing pilates/yoga 5-6 times a week.

thur july 22

today i did a yoga lower body workout on the dvd jenny gave mom.

it was good- i couldn't do all of it because i havent' been doing yoga and strength training lately. it was good- only twenty minutes. I will see how sore I am tomorrow. i have had lower back pain for a few days so I hope this would help, but maybe not. I don't know if it is from work or what.

I think I have figured out a 'normal' schedule for my week from now on. we will see. spencer and i are also going to work out more now that he is DONE with his album. hooray! maybe even join the pd rec center and get into racquetball!

monday july 19th

today keeley came over and we went to our workout room. It was intense! I think I am her Laurie! We went on the treadmills for about 50 minutes! I did some uphill and some running, burned 330 calories (which I have now consumed in wine and a white russian!). Then we did bench press, 12 reps with 20 lbs twice, followed by 10 reps of a triceps lift (weight behind head, elbows in) twice, and bicycle and plank stomach moves. It was good. I felt really energized, and also like the time went by quickly with someone else there. It was fun! Our plan is to do this once a week from now on, depending on her schedule with the kids and nursing. But I think it will be good to have one really intense long workout a week, followed by several shorter ones on my own.

tomorrow is my birthday! I weighed myself at my parents the other day and I was 127. That was midday, so 125, which is where I want to be, but I want to be more muscle and less fat.

I might go shooting tomorrow at a shooting range! Woohoo!!!!

friday july 9th

Today I just walked on the treadmill (at an 8 incline for most of it) for 30 minutes. Watching Divine Design and Barefoot Contessa, of course. I really did not want to go, but knew it'd be good for me, and I'd have more energy, afterward. I did. It was good. And it loosened up my muscles.

I had to compensate for eating oatmeal cookies for lunch. Not that I feel guilty that it was cookies, mostly that subsisting on 150 calories all afternoon was not a great food choice. Dinner was salmon, a great salad, corn-on-the-cob and wine. yum!

Dessert: small bowl of ice cream, with almonds, chocolate sauce and a cherry! I was so tired that I barely stayed awake for Scrubs before falling into bed. New ceiling fan! I never slept so well!

wednesday july 7th

Today was the first day in a week- A WEEK!- that I did any sort of workout. Sigh... My excuse for last thursday through Saturday is cramps! and feeling like barfing, and exhaustion! (though my first month off bc was not as bad as it could be.. maybe things are getting better? my uterus is trying to befriend me? a little late there..)

Anyway, tonight spencer and I went to the workout room when he got home. Treadmill rats for 30 minutes, watching Cash Cab. I did like 11.5 incline for about half of it and then ran a bit. I noticed that going up and down the stairs afterward to take trash out was easier- almost fun? Like my legs enjoyed it. Tomorrow I am hoping to do a strength training session before hanging out with Morgan Oregon...

I haven't measured myself or weighed myself. We're thinking of getting a scale. I am going to measure myself at the end of the month- or perhaps my birthday. That'd be a good routine- yearly weigh-in. No? I think it'll be good, even if I don't have inches gone, I know I am losing some weight and I am getting more consistent with working out. Really going to focus on food also from now on. Tonight we had grilled chicken on salad for dinner. Split one Naan bread from tj's and small glass of wine each. Sated. Ate cereal at dawn- almost done with that!- then an americano, turkey bacon sandwich and smoothie at work, also iced tea, veggie stir fry and brown rice when I got home, a yogurt before spencer got home. I'm doing pretty good today. Last night ate popcorn for dessert. I can't help it- it's my downfall. Trying to limit it to the weekends.

wednesday june 30th

Today I didn't have much energy or time, so I did an arm and butt routine. Both from websites or magazines. It took about fifteen minutes and was really good. The arm one was with weights and I did the fewest reps but I think it was still good- did 5lb weights. The butt thing was basically ballet moves- plies and leg lifts (ack! my french is gone! where is it?). I think I will do this combo together for awhile and see what happens.... it reminded me that I want the nyc ballet workout dvd... if i get birthday money!

monday june 28th

Today I walked on the treadmill for 40 minutes!!! Uphill like at 12 for about 15 minutes and then ran at the end- it was good. Watching the Bourne Ultimatum, so that made me want to be a machine! I love those movies! Then came home and cleaned the house for about an hour and a half! I love a clean house, clean floors and the energy that comes from working out.

saturday june 26th

Yesterday Spencer and I walked on the treadmill for 25 minutes. Nothing really exciting, but it was good since I didn't want to go, feeling lethargic, etc. I am always happily surprised by how much more energetic and happy I feel after exercising.

Today we tried to watch exercisetv videos but had issues with Flash. So, Spencer agreed to go to the workout room two days in a row! What a nice husband- I totally didn't want to go, but mindlessly watching food network seemed within my realm of capability. I walked for 20 minutes and then did arm weights and some bicycle crunches and the plank. My arms and abs are really untoned right now, so I am trying to target those areas. I did bench presses with 10 lb weights, side lifts with 5lbs, tricep lifts (holding 10lb weight with both arms behind head, and straightening arms). We shall see how things look in 2 months.

wednesday june 23rd

(writing on thursday)

Yesterday I did an exercisetv workout that was called something like 'sleek and sexy' or 'toned and sexy.' It was basically a cardio bootcamp class condensed into twenty insane minutes. My inner thighs and butt are really sore, but that is good. I really need something that can get my lower abs and upper arms in check, though! What will it take?

Today I am going to hang out with morgan for her bday- we are getting cold stone- exactly what I don't need. But I don't want to diet and kill the fun. One scoop won't kill me. It's funny though, how easy it is to say no to things because I am so focused on losing this bulk. I am trying to make more conscious choices about fiber and lean protein and veggies to munch on, and also watch calorie intake- all those free drinks at starbucks (I just drink lattes or americanos) are still calories that I wouldn't be drinking if I didn't work there. Need to start carrying a water bottle everywhere with me. Goal for the week!

Also, going to stop drinking fruit juice and eat fruit whole for the fiber.

hill climbing

yesterday i climbed the treadmill on inclines of varying degrees for about 40 minutes. I watched Food Network to distract myself, and learned to add a roux to chicken soup to thicken it up. Also, only bake a cobbler for 2o minutes- I KNEW the recipe I made on Father's Day was wrong! Lemon zest instead of juice and some nuts also would make it an actual crisp instead a Berry Mush, which mine was. Anyway, I decided yesterday to make a sort of schedule - m/w/f cardio t/th strength training, saturday pilates or yoga. sunday rest, or go on a walk with spencer. I figured that if summer is about 92 days long, and I workout 5-6 days a week for the whole summer, I should be in pretty good shape by the time autumn comes. You don't want to go into sweater weather with extra bulk. Maybe I could set a goal like 5 days a week all summer and if I do it, I can buy a new pair of boots! My trusty black Ann Taylor ones didn't survive Snowmageddon.

saturday june 19th: week in review

Today, after a lapse of 4 or 5 days I did the Pilates Fit video on exercisetv.tv. Last night was Keeley's graduation party, so after work, it was a rush to get everything done before 6:30. On Thursday, I did do the eliptical machine for 20 minutes and then the treadmill for 20. I have had a really busy week, but I knew I needed to exercise. Wednesday night, Spencer and I were going to work out, but when he got home, I was too tired, so we ate dinner and then walked around the neighborhood for about fifteen minutes. It was nice to walk and talk without the sun being out. If we could do that every night, it'd be great. Monday and Tuesday I didn't do anything because I was hanging out with Morgan all day Tuesday and Monday I had coffee dates and grocery shopping to do.

I asked Spencer today if this summer we could really work on getting in shape, and he said yes. I just want to make exercise a part of my day, not something crazy like 2 hours of kickboxing, but just something every day. I think I do want to start doing more cardio, just until I lose about 5 pounds. I think I will sign up for the tram hike in October, then I have a clear training goal. 3000 ft elevation in less than 4 miles! Imagine how great my butt would look after that!

saturday june 12th

today i did nothing. still recovering from that yoga workout yesterday. arms and lower back- ouch! legs too. last night, i totally pigged out: popcorn, skittles AND a white russian whilst watching the x-files with spencer! ack! But I never do that anymore. Usually dinner is the end of eating for me every night. that is good. Today I even went to a bridal shower and passed up the junkfood and cake (then again, cake is like the last thing on earth i ever want to eat).

friday june 11th

Today I did an intermediate/advanced yoga video on exercisetv. I did not do every rep of every move because it was intermediate to advanced and I was running out of steam. But I liked it. I like that with all the downward-facing-dogs you do, you end up getting an arm workout without doing push ups or lifting weights. I think my lower back hurts a little from it- not sure if I twisted too far in a couple moves or what... ibuprofen and a nap, here I come!

(monday)

p.p.s. yesterday, after we got back from the funeral where spencer and the music team led worship, i did a pilates leg workout, and a stretching workout from exercisetv.tv. it was about 20 minutes altogether, but still glad i did it. learned some good back exercises. i read this quote today, and i think it should be my new motto for exercise, and life in general:

it doesn't matter how much you do, but how often you do it.

amen.

tuesday

today i did NOT vote. sigh. as a past poll worker, i really should have. but, i didn't take the time to research the options, so i did not want to be (gasp) 'an uninformed voter.' better to not contribute, right? (wrong. that was sarcasm).

i DID workout, however. barely. spencer talked me into it. we went to the gym - our room by the pool in our neighborhood- not a real gym- yuck!- and walked on the treadmill for 30 min. I have to say, I am glad we did. I was feeling overly sluggish and hungry before we went, but afterward, i felt calmer and more energetic- if that makes sense. I felt less cranky and excited for our delicious dinner! I have been ROCKING dinner lately. I will post some pictures soon. anyway, my point to this whole post is that spencer bought me a present that arrived today. I knew it was a book, and he did it under the auspice of free shipping, but all the same i am so lucky to have such a nice husband, and i had to brag:

a goal in life (since reading My Life in France) is to own each of Julia Child's books. maybe set up a shrine in my kitchen one day- aw, a little Julia shelf! i already have a mini eiffel tower that we bought on our honeymoon! it is hard for me to realize that people like atticus finch are not real, and that anne frank and julia child are not going to be my best friends one day... that is why we have books, i suppose.

ps.. i just did not feel like capitalizing today, forgive me.

sunday june 6th

yesterday and today i did a pilates workout on exercisetv.tv. for free! it was half an hour long, and I really liked her teaching style! she said a lot of things that made sense, like to push against your arm with your shin in the double leg stretch - i think that's the one- where you are bicycling your legs in the series of five. that made my stomach engage and it never had before! Today, spencer even did it with me! I noticed that today I could do the arm things better, and some of the other moves. It was a good overall workout, and it goes by really fast. Spencer let me buy it yesterday, so it is now on my laptop. I also got a free ab workout with it. i will try that tomorrow.

After our workout, I made us each a bowl of fruit for a snack. Yum. Blueberries, pineapple, mango and grapes.

We even got 8 hours of sleep last night. I think this is the best weekend in a long time. We really needed the break. and this week will be hermit week, too! except for the funeral tomorrow, where spencer is leading worship. After that, though, no more people!

My major goal: GET CAUGHT UP ON QUICKEN!!

free yoga!

Today I looked at the 3 websites Jenny told me about for free yoga workouts. Actually, they have other options, too, but I was curious about yoga. I ended up doing a beginner workout with Megan Townsend on exercisetv.tv. Here is the link.

It was good. Only 20 minutes, nothing super hard, but I was sweating by the end of it. That is what I love about Pilates, and the small amount of Yoga that I have done. You don't have to bounce around like a maniac, do 300 crunches or be out in the sun and heat to get a good workout. And it improves your breathing, posture, flexibility and poise. I feel graceful while I am doing it, like I do in ballet. I stand taller and am more relaxed afterward. (Don't get me wrong, I don't always want to be calm and serene. Sometimes I just want to do hip hop or kickboxing, dress like an escapee from the 80's and blow off steam!)

I just realized I am writing this more like a blog than a journal entry, but oh well. What if it ends up being read?

I am tempted to do more, to 'make up' for the weeks and weeks of no working out at all. I have been so worn down by work. But I won't. Baby steps. Baby steps to the car... (what about bob? anyone?) I think this is the shift from the last 4 months: I have only 12 hours next week and I only worked 2 hours today. I can sleep more, read more, exercise more, cook more, find new blogs, research forums on etsy, FINALLY learn to sew, and clean my house! I actually enjoy cleaning, for the workout and the sense of calm and spaciousness it leaves. Maybe I even have time for a coffee date or two!

Does that count?

Did super deep cleaning in the kitchen today. No workout, no time because I had to get groceries and then get ready to have dinner/game night at Josh & Jaymi's. Jenny told me 3 websites where one can download or watch free yoga lessons, so THAT is my main goal tomorrow, other than reading my Bible. Possibly clean the bathrooms, but I think they can wait a day.

Doing better at portion control. Trying to drink more water also since it is now over 100 and sure to stay that way for the next five months. bleah.

time warp

Apparently, I missed three days in there somewhere, because I dated yesterday's entry as 'may 25th' when it was actually the 28th. Hmmm....

Anyway, today was a perfect Saturday. Spencer and I got home from drew and leah's around midnight (we are not always old people going to bed at 8 o'clock) and fell asleep. I love being so tired that I fall into a deep sleep and don't stir all night. We slept until TEN! beautiful. Then got up, made coffee and sourdough french toast with strawberries. Had a business 'meeting' with our laptops to determine the release date of Spencer's album. July 31st. Two whole months, but it'll come quickly. So much to do before then. Jenny and Michael are going to try to come out for it, so we needed to decide on a firm date. I then text messaged about twenty friends telling them the release date; everyone is very supportive and excited. (It occurs to me perhaps I should be blogging about being a do-it-yourself rockstar's wife, but how many blogs does one person need, honestly?)

Then I finished reading Money, Possessions and Eternity by Randy Alcorn. Amazing. Sigh. I feel I should immediately start over again. It is so dense. I wish I could make everyone read it.

After that, naptime. Then, workout time. I must admit I really did not want to do anything. I was feeling nauseous and tired, but I knew we should go do it- and spencer kept asking 'when are we working out?' so I had to. We just walked on the treadmills and watched Monk for half an hour. It was good and already time for dinner after that. How the day goes by. I did not get any quicken done. Sigh. That was my goal for May and I now have 2 days left.

For dinner, spencer had a taco and I had stir fry. I still think I made too much because I couldn't finish it. I really need to watch portion sizes. During the marathon training, I began eating more (obviously) and was often able to eat my own portion, when before I always shared with spencer when we ate out. I still split with him, but at home I think I eat more than I need to now.

We watched Return to Me, which is semi- sappy but I really like it. Spencer was laughing because I made some comment about how terrible people are in restaurants (the blind date) and then I said 'bad valet' when he went to his truck and the seat was way forward. It occurred to me then that I have worked many different jobs, all pretty much blue collar. Right after that, spencer said, "You've worked all these jobs... well, except being an architect." "yeah, because that's a career. I'm a jill-of-all-trades." Maybe it doesn't matter if I ever do something as a 'career.' I am reading Three Cups of Tea, the story of Greg Mortensen, a moutaineer who became a builder of schools in remote mountain villages of the Himalaya. Before that, even though he had gone to grad school and was a nurse and successful climber, he felt aimless, like he was wandering in life. Julia Child didn't start cooking until she was in her late thirties. Spencer always likes to hear about late-blooming rockstars, because there are all too many young meteoric rock bands out there who barely know how to play their instruments, but somehow wind up on npr and opening for Coldplay. I like to hear those stories too, the ones where people didn't 'know they were going to be an actress since they were five.' I want to have a story. But I want to be ok without knowing what it is right now. Develop who I am without a calling first. Like people who say you should be a whole person before you start dating, rather than being afraid of being alone. I was always ok being alone, believing the right one would come along. But I am not so sure about the right career. I like so many things. We will just have to wait and see.

I digress. Tis time for bed. Almost one o'clock! Tomorrow is dinner with the butlers and my parents to celebrate jenny and michael's one year anniversary. A whole year. I can't wait to see where we all are next year...

day one: may twenty fifth

this is going to be my new exercise/food journal. I don't intend anyone to follow it. I might also keep track of books i'm reading or other random things that don't make it into my other blog.

today i did nothing exercise wise. I worked like crazy because it is friday and i was in the drive-through.

Yesterday I did a twenty minute pilates dvd - windsor. the day before that I hiked partway up the bump and grind trail. I need to stretch my legs but haven't yet. So, today I rested. I have also been trying to eat less, just consciously paying attention to when I am actually hungry and when I am full. And this week, I have been drinking very little alcohol, caffeine, and staying away from refined white flours and sugar. we had breaded fish two nights ago, and I made a taco salad yesterday that had fried corn tortilla chips. I felt overly full after that. Today also after my smoothie and sandwich at work I felt near to sick from overeating. I am wondering if my metabolism has slowed, or perhaps that I need to re-acclimate to a post-half-marathon-training diet, since that was now five months ago and I seem to have steadily put on weight. Not that I am overweight, at 5'7" and 128lbs. My measurements currently:

4.25.10

waist-27

lower ab-33

hips-38

chest-34

arms- 11 at top, 10.5 bicep

thigh-22

What I would like to be at is the same weight, but toned and less fat. I wish I had a way to measure my body composition, as I feel my fat is higher than it should be given my frame. I would also like to be sleeping more - a job hazard at starbucks- and exercising regularly, like 6 days a week, most of them with spencer. I would like to be running 3 miles 3 times a week and not exhausted by it, and also practice pilates and yoga so that i am much more flexible. I would like to lose the fat that is on my upper arms and the slight tire around my middle. Also, something new to me, thigh fat. I have always had rather boyish legs and I liked them. I don't mind hips, because that looks better in clothing, but the excess fat on my upper legs is grossing me out. I think it is what my training muscle turned to after I stopped running 15 miles a week.

that is a lengthy first post, but I just thought I would be consistent with this if it were a blog, since I have not had luck with journals of my own or online.

future posts:

favourite exercises

food goals